Change happens. Change is inevitable. While I don't love it, I am learning to accept it with a happy face (most of the time) and feelings of peace in my heart. Without Change, there would be no forward progression in life, and I am all about moving on!
You see, I am not too happy about the Changes in my life the past few months. These Changes, at first, didn't just happen over night. They were gradual, but when they caught up to me I denied them and didn't accept them with open arms. I just couldn't. It was scary. Different. New.
I have been in a constant push-and-pull relationship with my body. Weight gain, weight loss, and back to weight gain. Needless to say, it is not subsiding. No matter how hard I try to work off the extra L.b's, the scale keeps on getting higher and when I use new tactics that are supposed to alleviate my lower back pain and the stress on my hips the more my A.S. (ankylosing spondylitis) flares up! Having said that, I have been getting better about accepting this new Change and internalizing it to mean something positive in my life. Like a representation of a new stage of living.
Changes were made last year. Big ones. A marriage and a move. But there were subtle, personal bodily Changes too. All the cellulite and stretch marks (unpleasant and sad...I know) are a testament of the progression that I have made with myself both spiritually and physically over the last year. My body is dealing with Change in the best way it knows how, and I can't compare anything else to it. I can however, love the Change that my mind has made. I can love the Changes that I have made to better my spirituality and the relationship that I have with my husband. I have never been here before. It is foreign. I need to learn to accept it, understand it, and only then will I be able to grow from it.
I am going to make Changes. The kind of Changes that can make life better. Changes that put a smile on my face and give me hope that the future is bright. Basically, I am going to own up to it and love it.
I will CHOOSE CHANGE!
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